Hmmm...This few day mood just seem to be like up and down for no reason. Ever since that day everything just dont seem to go any way. Some sort of lost touch with Sara, cos it seem that he still cant get over her ex GF. And than we stop texting and think he should have forget what we text before already. Maybe that really is all guys would do one. Should really get use to back to the day where I dont text him or any and see how it goes. But I would really wish that we could get back to the way like how we text. Cos texting him is so fun, just as a friend will do. Wont really wish much any more since we two is also impossible to be together. We are just from two difference world. And for now a days, working is just so stress. So many crop up, all due to baggage thing. Now every one goes to work with a heavy heart. Every one is just so afraid that suddenly that any one would just say there got a baggage issue again. Now working is like a risk. Whatever we do, we just need to double check and double check again and again. Just to prevent from anything to happen again. It is just not like how. Who is able to work under this kind of stress like that?!?!?! My life now is like just so lost now. Really dont know should I head. Cant even think of what should I do and what type of job should look for after that. Wondering who is able to lend a  helping hand out and guide me along the way or maybe just give me a bit of hint of what should I do?

It like finally i get to have the freaking time to sit down alone somewhere, listening to music and write my blog.

"Sometime it is better to be alone, because it give you time to be who you are"

To be frank, it been like a year or so I have been like this "single" life. Although there still many up and down, but I still mange to survive it. Work life is still as usual like how it use or should be "suck". But i this world where is there on earth an job that is not "suck" at all!?!?! This is call life. Family? Not to say anything. Getting more and more disappointed with it. Ever since uncle and grandpa pass away everything seem to change a lot. Now this whole family seem like going to become two family just because of one refrigerator. Wonder how long everything can last or at least change back to how it was use to be? But I don't even think that would even going to be happening at all. What more that my grandma is so bias now. Me and my brother also her grandchild but in her eye only got the other 4 which is much more better than us. What to do? She is still our grandma. Love life??? Still single like how I want it to be. Although there some that really touch me, but to me that feeling is like just last for that blink of time. It was when time pass, suddenly the feeling is just like gone. But that is like when I found out something regarding them. Why do nowadays guy just can't prove that they are not untrustworthy or maybe "playful"? It seem to be o how for them. Like just so recently, Jessica just broke off with her boy due to some reason and what more he is not truth at all time too. When I heard about that news, it make me even more scare of it. Cos recently get to contact a guy working under CX engineering. He is a Malaysia Penang Indian guy. He is very irradiating , but no matter how irradiating he is, I would always smile or laugh at his msg. And no matter how angry I am with him, once he try to text me again when I did not reply his msg, I would always jsut cant bare to not reply his msg. Every day once he woke up, he will just text me till when I goes to bed. Sometime when we have nothing to say, we would just spam the msg with emoji. And that is both of us. But the no no no thing is that, he is a India from Malaysia and heard from Emma regarding him and Mimi thing, which make me retreat even more back from him. Although we both now also start to meet each other and go out and getting a bit more close, but I still don't know what is he thinking.  He get me really very interested in him, but I am just so afraid that the more interested, the more disappointment I will get. I really in sure a lost mode now. I really freaking relly don't know what I should do. Or should I just goes with the flow as how it should be. Just like the quotes"What it meat to be yours is yours. What it not meat to be yours it will be yours."

It been so long ever since I post on the blog. Was so busy with my work and what more my computer is down. Finally as month pass, bought a new laptop with my hard work money and get the time to do a short post now. But it really will be a very short post. As right now I going to have my dinner and get to sleep for work tomorrow. Cheers!

2015 first post

It a brand new year. A brand new post. Have some bite at church after service before going to IKEA for shopping. Although I didn't have anything to buy there, but I still like to shop at IKEA.

Pushing two boy around IKEA.

After the 2hrs or so at IKEA, it like finally we moving off to some other place. Off to some where near East Shore Hospital there to have our early dinner. Was suppose to have Fish slice noodle, but the stall not yet open, so all of us ended up eating fish-ball noodle. Went back to Freda Jie house after our early dinner as we are going to Expo later on. While uncle fetch Grandma and maid home first. As usual, you will never be back home empty handed when you go to Expo. No matter what you will always end up home with some food. Took a rest at the food court there before going to the IT fair to look for QinLin Kor. After that, went back home, as everyone is tired.

解脱

我终于说出口了！我解脱了！突然感觉好轻松，好快乐。这块石头也背了五年了，累了。但我相信没有他我会过的更好。因为他不值得我因他而难过。今年新年就让我与耶稣一起度过新的一年吧。因为要不是他，我也度过不了这个难关。Happy New Year in advance!

Japan Day 6

It the last day!!! We are so going back home! Feeling so sick at this time, making me don't even have the mood to walk and look. This morning, visit the venerable Asakusa Kannon Temple, which has more than 1.300 years of history. In the mean while you can pick up souvenirs at nearby Nakamise shopping street, a walkway leading to the temple.

Us with the tour guide

After having our lunch there, went to somewhere, which I also don't know where is it. As I am not feeling well, so did not really listen to what the guide is saying. Anyway the somewhere is a place for shopping. It a long stretch street fill with high end brand like Burberry etc. But there still some shop for us youngster like H&M.

Next up, which is the last destination of the day, we was brought to the Toyota car exhibition. Although is quite boring, but I still can walk around as there a shopping area there. Went off to Airport at 1700plus to check in, as the tour guide afraid that we might be separated  for the seating. After all the check in is done, went in to the boarding gate to shop. Bought 4 big bag of biscuit within 15min time. Fast right?!?! Took our dinner, have something very basic as it "Airport".

There goes my favourite scramble egg

Bro curry beef rice.

Reach back Singapore around 0700 plus, went back home pack our stuff and take a rest before going off to Grandma house for Xmas party!

Me the crazy shopper!

Japan Day 5

Last 2 day! Time past so fast! After breakfast, spend the rest of the day to do shopping. First we went to Akihabara! It is a district in central Tokyo that is famous for its many electronics shops and anime/manga.

Buying Xmas present!

After all the walking, finally settle the present for the guys and friend, while Bro also bought something for himself. It time for lunch! It a must go  to the maid cafe when you are at Akihabara(if you dare to try). Try out something new won't kill you. Bought mum and dad to the maid cafe and they was so shock! I was a bit shock too, as it was my first time(although use to see it in anime).

My lunch! So cute and nice!

Next up is Harajuku Takeshita Street. You will see the street once you step out of the train. It packed with people and there really lots of stuff to shop for. Like for me, I bought 3 shoes, 2 shirt, 2 skirt and quite some accessories.

The last place of the day is Shinjuku, it is fill with  large entertainment, business and shopping area. It is more to department store and some high end stuff. If you don't want to shop there is ok, but do try to at least take a walk there. Once you get of the train you sure will get a shock out of it, it is much more pack than Orchard.

After mum bought a pant at Uniqlo, we decide to went back to our hotel area to have out dinner. As it already 7plus and we still have not eat. Settle at a store once we step out of the train as it look like some Chinese food.

OMG! Feel so sick! Running tap started to open!

Went back to hotel to put our stuff after dinner than went out again to do a short last min shopping and to look for cake. We planning to have a small advance Bday celebration for mum just like 5 year ago. But this time is lucky, get to find a shop that do sell a slice of cake.

It just so nice!

Tomorrow is the last day and I'm sick. Always bring sickness back home. And of cos before going back, it time to pack our luggage.

The thing we gain from today shopping!